This blog comes deep from within my soul... that tortured part that is trying to find my way and God's will for my life.
Now, I am purposely writing this blog for my Geek friends; D&D, cosplay, convention attending, science fiction and fantasy loving friends. I truly crave your thoughts and opinions, but please no "hate" comments, because I am truly seeking what can or even should be done.
First, I feel the need to establish my Geek Cred. I have always been a stereotypical nerd. I have been bullied because I was smart. In elementary school I walked over a mile to catch the bus so that I wouldn't be pushed down and forced to eat dirt or worse yet worms. I snuck down to my brother's room to watch Star Trek and Logan's Run, because my parents thought Science Fiction was too scary for a 5 to 6 year old girl. I went to my first Star Trek convention when I was 14 and when I realized that people actually went in uniforms I had my mother help make costumes for my brother and me. I have been cosplaying ever since! (Well, unless you count being Princess Leah for Halloween in 77, 78, and 79... if so then I have been into cosplay since I was 10.) I discovered D&D in Middle School back before it was even AD&D. In High School I was BOTH a theatre and choir geek... Not to mention having a 4.0. I met my husband in the college gaming club, which while I was an officer we officially changed our name to Vanderbilt University League of Gamers and Roleplayers... even though the yearbook refused to list us as V.U.L.G.A.R. Through all this I still had a strong faith. When I felt called into the ministry my mentor asked me two questions that should have tipped me off to some of the problems I would face in the church. 1. How will you respond when you encounter who believe that women shouldn't be ministers? 2. How will you respond to the people who think that D&D is the equivalent of Satan worship? (To be clear, he didn't agree with either view, but he knew what I would soon learn. The church is made up of sinful people just like the rest of the world, and it is most dangerous when it believes it is being "righteous.")
It has always bothered me that the people that I feel the most kinship with are for the most part absent from the church. I have spent many long nights in college, over D&D tables, and waiting in line to see the latest Dr. Who or Arrow guests discussing why that is so.
I have discovered that most geeks fall into two categories. The first I will call the "Sheldons". Like Sheldon Cooper in the "Big Bang Theory" they were raised (or just encountered) churches that taught that you couldn't believe what science taught. They believed that all Christians believed in Creationism and that the world was only a few thousand years old. They were shocked when I said that isn't universally true. The Presbyterian Church doctrine says that there is nothing in science that contradicts what we believe. For instance the Bible itself says that God's time is not our time. A thousand years is just a moment to God... So, creation could have easily taken Billions of years. Also, not all Christians believe everything has to be taking literally. My example: God said, "Let there be light" sure sounds like a description of the big bang to me. Hebrew culture, that wrote the Old Testament is filled with parables, analogy, and (gasp) even poetry. There is a group of NASA scientist that write a Christian journal for the scientifically minded discussing new scientific discoveries and how they show God's Glory. (They happen to be Presbyterian.) Those weird off putting black robes that most Presbyterian ministers wear that creep out some church visitors have their origins in Masters' robes. Education was so important to John Calvin, one of the Presbyterian Church's founding fathers, that you wore your graduation robe to prove you had a formal education. Presbyterian ministers are still REQUIRED to have a Masters Degree... (and "yes" it is a real Masters Degree... You wouldn't believe the number of times people have asked if a Masters of Divinity is a real degree or just honorary... Three of the most challenging years of my life including learning to read both Greek and Hebrew, argue, "yes" it is a REAL Masters Degree.)
The second category I will call the "wounded". Just like in school, many of my Geek peers feel unwelcome in church. Whether it is because they played D&D, believed what they learned in Science class, or because their sexual orientation didn't fit with what some well meaning, but misinformed church members in their past told them, or whether they were actually asked to leave because of who they were or what they believed, these friends have real reason to mistrust the church. I do my best to explain to them that it isn't God or Jesus who rejected them, but sinful, fallible, human beings. The Bible teaches us that God so loved the world... not just the chosen few. We are called to love our neighbors, and even more our enemies. We are told NOT to judge. No matter how much of God's healing, grace, and love I am able to show I have very little belief that I will ever get them to go through a church door. It is clearly not just a problem of my friends... At Dragon Con there is one lonely "fans for Christ" table and more than 16 "Good without God" type groups represented.
From my experience most Geeks are good people. They volunteer, they give to charity, they give gallons upon gallons of blood, they march for equality and serve their fellow human beings whenever they can. They fight for justice. They are also spiritual. They hunger for meaning and seek the truth. All of these things are things that Jesus taught and God wants from us and it breaks my heart that we as the church have driven off or alienated these wonderful, beautiful, human souls.
So, a couple of years ago as Jon-Paul and I were admiring a "Geek Easy" (a grill and bar in the back of a comic shop) he only half jokingly suggested that I start a Geek Church (Geek Orthodox Church in his words... but the word orthodox has too much negative baggage for me.) We could meet in the back of comic book shops and discuss faith in comics and movies and work together for good. I rolled my eyes at the time, but it has been gnawing at me ever since. I also keep running upon a relatively new Presbyterian phenomenon, the 1001 Worshiping Communities. This is a program that is helping us re-imagine what it means to be faithful. There is one group that is Cyclists for God. They bike 10 or 20 miles then stop for a meal and worship. Then, this past Saturday Katy gave an update on her "Missing Piece" worshiping community. The people who were coming together in homes, coffee houses, and parks to "Worship through Cerebral, Spiritual, and Physical and service" sounded like my Geek friends! They were doing it! They were reaching these people who felt a strong call to serve, but for one reason or another had turned away from the church. Katy was actually excited when I mentioned my silly dream of reaching out to my fellow Geeks, and her thoughts were seconded by two other Geeks who happened to come to speak to Katy about similar things. Katy suggested that I start to talk to people about my dream and write about it.
So, Katy this is probably my longest blog to date.
My question to all of you is, "Is this just my silly dream? Am I being called to reach out to the intellectual, comic book reading, roleplaying, cosplaying community? Would there be any interest to meet over drinks(Yes, Jesus drank wine and probably danced as well), before or after super hero movies, or even around a gaming table to discuss faith, being faithful, and what is the meaning of life? (I know... 42) But most importantly, does the church itself need the re-imagining that the Geek culture could bring to it?
Faithfully yours,
Karen
Blogger, Preacher, Cosplayer, AD&D Roleplayer, sci-fi/fantasy amateur author, and humble seeker of truth
